Thursday, October 29, 2009
different feelings....
val said i very long nv blog le. haha here i am. no time to blog everyday lo, got ohilo to read up on and then calling. haha. but once every 2 days i guess its fine ba. bloggin is the first thing i do when i reach home today la, cuz there is stuff to say bout today lo
today is the last main comm meeting for y camp. many many ppl sia. haha. i bit paiseh i nv do up my survival guide lo but nvm, i guess we still have our chances. haha. yup. mix feelings in me now, ok mebbe just now. when i see her and kmkz jokin with each other, omg, i felt it agn. RAWR!! damn weird feeling la, a bit the irritated, ok dunno why it came out but ya, i cannot feel like that, i got MR liao. haha. then during meeting she said like, nt a lot, but her words came out a bit wrong la. oh wells, that did make me feel nt really happy oso. ya. its oso a bit on her insensitiveness i guess. good thing i wasn't her co-**...haha ok la, but her words make sense, just that please don't put it in such a way i guess. ya lo. dun like it when i have this feel.
b4 meetin me n hazmi went hanging arnd ps, ok acty nt much of hanging arnd, more of sitting down, eating and chatting. haha. hazmi wanted to buy moisturizer sia. omg, he got some strawberry flavoured thing frm body shop lo. smells edible la. if i gotta apply it i will eat my hand man. and ya. he was so damn secretive bout it la. super funny lo!! but yup. its damn nice hanging out wif mimi. heh. i tink he is my second y fren lo. ok now my whole hand is filled with smells of perfume from the body shop. it is good, but too much of a good thing sometimes gets a bit irritatin. damn i'm gonna bathe after bloggin sia.
finally submitted the philo paper, damn it f pissed me off sia. juz anyhow do lo. i tink i'l screw up this sem's CAP la. but nvm. slowly slowly sia. today's lesson was quite fun. ponned emotions lec to go for make up tut for chin. haha. i realized chin literary works are quite interesting sia, no wonder tracia was so into it then. haha but i tink i wun find time to go n read such stuff de lo. i'l get more of english stuff ba.
today i sorta missed him a little. dunno why but after ytd i feel that i am a bit inferior to his ex gfs. yea man. like a bit pei bu shang him, shit why i always have this inferiority complex sia. but there was a sentence he said: all my ex gfs very good at expressing themselves and more inclined towards the arts side. hmmm, i felt a bit inferior when i heard it lo. like. damn, i'm just a student. what am i to him man. RAWR!! then today after i said i ended lesson den he nv reply me le. until now sia. i'm still waitin for his reply lo. damn. i checked my phone so many times today la. for his msg, his predicted missed calls, anything... but dun have sia. hmmmm. why? izzit i say wrong things agn, or he really thinks we are nt suited for each other. hmmm. i'm thinkin of that question oso lo. but ya la its too early to say so. juz now got another more exaggerating thought la. i suddenly start to worry did he fell off the building when he wanted to reply an sms, or mebbe MY sms? damn can he please freakin reply?!?!
ok as usual i heard this song on my mp3 agn. explained what i felt for a moment, den i realised mebbe this song can be one of those that he choose to dedicate to me. hehe
Quote:今夜玩得有一点疯狂其实我早就该回去整夜的笑容在你的脸上你是我最美的旋律牵手牵得那么自然 ah有默契浪漫就不难像是手表被谁快转你说真的时间太晚 oh no nooh 在每一秒里都想见到你爱是不停在期待的心拥有完美感情才有好心情能不能晚点回去oh 在每一秒里都想见到你太多话我想讲给你听今夜有最适合谈心的天气能不能晚点回去(每一秒里都想见到你, 王力宏)today is quite a nice day though he nv reply me. haha. nice weather too. hope it will be the same tmr, but with him replyin. RAWR!!
Labels: 每一秒里都想见到你
10/29/2009 11:46:00 PM
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Another night
Another Night, Real McCoy
Another night, another dream, and always you
It's like a vision of love that seems to be true
Another night, another dream, and always you
In the night I dream of a love so true
Just another night, another vision of love
You feel joy, you feel pain
'Cause nothing will be the same
Just another night, it's all that it takes
To understand the difference between
lovers and fakes, oh baby
I talk, talk, I talk to you
In the night in your dream of love so true
I talk, talk, I talk to you
In the night in your dream of love so true
In the night, in my dreams
I'm in love with you
'Cause you talk to me, like lovers do
I feel joy, I feel pain, 'cause it's still the same
when the night is gone I'll be alone
Another night, another dream, and always you
It's like a vision of love that seems to be true
Another night, another dream, and always you
In the night I dream of a love so true
Just another night, another dream
Another vision of love,
And we are here to set you free
I am the lover, your lover
Hey, sister, let me cover your body with my loving
Is my loving just a number?
Vision of love that seems to be true
we will do all the things that only lovers do
Vision of love that seems to be true
we will do all the things that only lovers do
WHEN THE NIGHT IS GONE I'LL BE ALONE..
Labels: another night
10/27/2009 09:48:00 PM
i'l miss ning!!
went to send ning off at the airport early this morn lo. gosh. i actually felt a bit like crying when ning started to. damn. this must be the retribution for making ning cry. RAWR!! but i really wanted to hug her luh~ no intentions of making her cry de. mannn. really hoped i could have cried out but dunno why after so long of nt cryin my tears juz got choked at the ends of the tear duct. man, din feel it when we sent jieru off lo. this is the second person i sent this year. heh. ning, like now we've been really close she just left sg lo, i think i'll miss out on someone to talk to when i feel confused and stuff liddat le. and i lost my partner to speak in lingo le lo. though MR speaks it too. haha.
will miss ning for being there every saturday to accompany me lo. cuz val usually has family stuff so cannot join the big grp. so most of the time its just me ning and the guys. haha. really thanks so much for ning to be there. all the htht's i'l miss times sharing things with her. nvm, i guess 53 days will past really quickly. after all my exams and y camp she will be back agn! yay! julia is being optimistic.
after ning left we went off home lo. have this real burning urge to call MR to make him comfort him. shit, i sorta longed for him to be there so that he's there to lend me his shoulder lo. arghh. finally when i am alone le i called he was sorta busy and cannot chat with me. haizz. hu was the one who say 'girl, you can call me anytime you want'. damn.
i tink like wad val said, i'm falling liao. ok, i guess i fell le. sobs, i feel like meeting him everyday. but this is impossible for me lo, esp wif my mum. haiz, stupid reasons can only be used once. darn. i'm damn scared he's toyin my feelings sia. like after my heart is dedicated to him, den he smash it onto the floor. RAWR!! muz build up on my defence le... anyway, ytd i told him that i wanted to meet him. haha. great job he met me as KLP. man. the kkochi is alrd so nice but with someone sharing the nice food i felt the chicken was heavenly. the best thing ytd was, i'l come back agn for the chicken. man. this simple sentence alrd recognized that my taste (for food) is nt bad, at least he agrees to it. this is recognitions i need lo. <3.... julia is floating away.
forgot to say. went kusu island ytd for this 'annual pilgrimage'. haha nt to the extent la, but i look forward to gng there to pray every year. the nice scenery, the serenity, the anticipation of wishes to come true. and every single thing on the island, it never failed to attract me back there every year. hope the next year i go there will be someone else with me too. haha. yea, i agreed to bring him there some day. hehe. i hope my wishes will come true...
i'm looking forward to tmr and thurs meeting. haha. and dry run too. ok the big obstacle today is to pass nt meeting him and finish my philo essay. shall reward myself with an eps of liu xing hua yuan korean version after my essay. haha. i tink later in the night there will be another round of blogging lo but right now.. i guess i shall stop ranting. hehe.
heard this song on my mp3 on bus ytd, gosh, it somehow described my feelings ytd. hehe
Quote:.......直到你现在能感应紧紧地抱着我让我在你怀里躲糟了 习惯了你把我宠坏了在你保护外 没有别的安全地带糟了 习惯了是你让我笑了 陶醉在天空宁静的白色我像个大小孩 依赖(宠坏了,stella huang xiang yi)Labels: 宠坏了
10/27/2009 05:00:00 PM
Sunday, October 25, 2009
i wanna say sorry
today was i freaking tiring day. being volunteer is so great compared to being a leader man. yea. today apsn outing was to gamehaven to play wii. i guess they benes have a nice time, but i din really get the chance to play it. so ya lor. its the benes time n nt mine anyway, so it is great to see them enjoy themselves. haha. jospeh gave a deep deep speech to us, where some of the points really hit me, nt hard but ya, i guess i realised i have real much room for improvement.
- sometimes it isn't good to keep nagging at the benes, they will get irritated. they feel what we feel though, so yes that will feel irritated
- we don't need to make our benes actively participate in everything. nth can be so perfect and go ur way, so yes. be passive at times when u handle benes?
- though benes are nt good un using their 5 senses tgt wif logical thinking, they have this intuition thing that make them realise things arnd them and this is how they gets to remain at this world. so ya lor.....
wad i've learnt. a lot lo. to be more organised and think of the whole process and activity b4 anything starts. hmmm, think more thoroughly b4 everything, dun be too hard on the rules. heh. ya la wadeva man. ytd was so nt prepared lo. i cannot slp at 3 b4 outings liao. muz slp earlier.
yea ytd i got 3 ppl to say sry to, now still wanna sae sorry.
first to babysitter, though he wun read the blog and i dun wan him to read the blog. man ytd was crap. i told him that i dun wanna associate with him sia. it was totally the wrong stuff i was thinkin about la, so juz blurted out the thing lo. sia la, it is totally damn bad, freakin totally. arghhh. REALLY WANNA SAY SORRY. told him le but still i guess it was too traumatic for him. omg i feel like a super bad woman sia. shit. and ytd i tink its cuz i dun have enuff slp plus dunno why la, i feel i damn bad towards him lor. shit man, keep pickin on his pronunciation stuff. arghh. nvm la, after a few days then i go back talkin to him? hmmmm
2nd is peifen, hmmm, i was totally nt prepare for setting the dates la. shit, this made her lost confidence in me huh? i hope she doesn't, cuz i really wanna do well at this camp. hmmm. sorry peifen. i will think more next time b4 each meeting de.
lastly is MR. hmmmm. wad belay team said is true. physical or emotional. i was a lil worried when i met him at night. had this little distance from him lo. but nope. i dun think it is a problem le. hmmm, he knew his limits. i guess he din wan me to feel uncomfortable ba. lol. thanks belay team for the concern. =) for now i will be more aware but still, wanna say sorry to him cuz i sorta doubted him. haha.
yea, today was good but a bit weird. like every sun i've been meetin MR, suddenly a sunday we din meet up, like sth missing huh. lol. shit man, like wad val says, i guess i'l falling le. haha. yea. still hope my belay team is there to look out for me. =) but after ytd's incident wif babysitter, one less person is no longer a belay team le lo. shit man.
i've been scolding a lot of shits today, but yea. the shitty feel bout ytd is still there...
quote:
when you start thinking if you love that someone, you alrd stopped loving him.
this is an old quote but reading thru my past posts i feel this is real meaningful. yes i totally agreed to it.
10/25/2009 11:25:00 AM
Friday, October 23, 2009
post happiness syndrome
shit man, i feel damn weird and down and sian and irrtitated today la. mebbe its cuz i have pms today or cuz ytd was to happy le. so i am suffering frm the post happiness syndrome. this is damn dumb but i wanna push the blame wholly to MR. he ended ytd so nice for me but today its such a cold day. like, nth exciting, nth fun. this is just like some post camp syndrome la. anyway i hope he's better today le.
i dun deny i fell aslp smiling to myself ytd. haha. had wake up call today though, 'snoozed' 3 times la. hehe, i finally woke up. when to sch for 2 hrs lesson den chiong home le. presentation for sw is totally crap, i tink i screwed it up lo. but i dun care la. its like the second last tut of the sem le. man i like social work. and i was tinkin mebbe i shud have let it be my major. no, it will be my major if i cannot get into psyc. haha. got back my sw indv reflections. ok mebbe its cuz i wrote quite a few reflections paper for ymca activities le so thats why my paper got A. hehe, vv happy though its only a mere 10% and i spent only 20 mins doing the 350 word reflections. sucks man i had so much more to write lo. haha.
yea decided to drop by the library b4 i go home. wanna look for philo books but i cant find the section in the public lib, so forget it la. randomly i borrowed a malay phrasebook home to read. heh. haven started reading lo.
when i was walkin home i was thinkin about, if MR post me the ques, will i accept? haha. i finally concluded that i'l bring him home for my parents to vet first, den see if he will pass or nt. lol. he'd better have to get into my parents good books b4 he does anything else. oh wells, like wad horoscopes says, capricorns are really family oriented. so yup. that is if he asks me lo. i have a feeling it wun be so soon though. i insisted we take time. =)
i juz rem the day b4 he was tellin me about why is babysitter so nice to me, mebbe he likes me? haha, crap la i told him it was nonsense, but ya, he is the third person who tells me so le. anyway i shall just believe that he is my babysitter and he is nice to me cuz we are in belay team. haha. but next time me and him have chance tgt i will nv call him along agn lo. lol the previous meetin was the chance gone. lol, the meetin b4 halloween party.
heard this song on bus today
reminds me of that time me n ning sang this song but yea, i guess part of me want this to happen:
QUOTE:但请你不要太快揭开还沉默的情话
先让我多着急一下再终于等到解答
太容易的爱故事就不耐人回味啦
像这样触电就够我快乐熔化
我们就耐心培养萌芽不要急着开花
反正有长长的日记等我们去填满它
在被全世界发现以前先愉快装傻
就这样触电一直甜蜜触电
直到爆炸
(触电,SHE)
Labels: 触电
10/23/2009 07:28:00 PM
y camp meeting
changed the blogskin to this new one lo. its quite cute sia, and its totally the format i like it to be like la. great! hope this skin dun go away so soon. from cradle to grave lo, sound like one of the lessons i had for social studies in sec sch. hehe. its so interesting man.
ok anyway today was quite a long day but i feel its quite a happy day for me lo. heh. 2hrs of lec, den met wif bek n victor for cs comm meeting den down to y to meet val to do stuff den y camp meeting. haha
hope that i wun be dead next yr doin my stuff for u**y sia. ok la i must have trust in my fellow members that they will not leave me in the lurch to settle everything myself. hmmm. anyway i tink we settled our stuff quite fast lo. so ok thats the good part for the lunch meeting. yea man.
oh jumping back to the lecture. seriously i tink the lectire is quite memorable sia. about romance in late modernization. haha. sia la the lecturer ask the guys how they date girls out, how much they spend each date blah blah blah. damn funny sia. the best part is the carpark joke. haha. 'i'l hang out at any kinda parks besides carpark', ultimate. ok anyway its a long story i'm lazy to talk about. heh
yea camp meeting was good. today i felt damn happy at meeting lei. mebbe its cuz the feel is nice, quite informal, jokes made blah blah. i like todays meeting. hehe. ya man. our angel mortal thing goes well oso. hehe. today u felt we seem to settle quite a few stuff liao. really, one of the last meeting b4 the exams start lo. heh. i feel real happy today, though now i'm supposed to be reading my readings and not slack arnd blogging. haha.
today juju took mr greedy down the phone le. =) i guess there may be some 藕断丝连but ya, i guess my crush for kmkz ended le. the moment when i got my hug. haha. hope there will be new things to put up to my phone pouch. =)
feeling happy feeling high feeling so good! and i am laughing to myself. haha. shit man. smiling giggling and laughing. RAWR!! this is totally crazy!!! haha
Quote:
有没有一把剑
能够真斩了藕断丝连
有没有一条线
能缝撤散的缘
独唱情歌最苦涩
逃不了的折磨
当生死相许说出口
别后眷恋已久
......
(独唱情歌,tank & selina)
Labels: 独唱情歌
10/23/2009 12:29:00 AM
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
tues wif ning n y people
tues, 20/10/09
nice nice time i had in the afternoon till night time. morn we met up for a short short belay team htht at fort canning. its a real nice place lo. heh. val ning and me~! so much to say, so lil time we had. dumb dumb wh, reach so early for wad lo. lol. but yea. hope ning likes our small small appreciation hehe.
went to ikea after meetin wh and tom. for lunch. haha this sounds noob but its the first time i had lunch at ikea. nt bad lo the meatballs, but seriously i tink i a bit scared of meatballs now liao sia. haha. when i saw the place i suddenly rem of the scene in 500 days of summer at ikea. haha, quite funny lo. imagine the couple on the bed and the chin family lookin at them. hehe.
den we went to bugis, for steamboat dinner luh~. wanna say sry to tom val shaun and wh cuz they wanted to play l4d but i refused to go lo. haha. went to coffeebean at iluma instead. they have real nice choc ice blend sia. yums!! ok after that i'm nt so guilty le cuz the 4 of them went to play b4 gng for steamboat lo.
steamboat brings back nice memories huh. the previous time i went i was sharing the same ma la guo wif him la. this time we went we were sitting far far away from each other. lol. the soup base was diff this time too, heh. the whole belay team is on the same table lo. haha. man. i juz tot of the nice nice time we had previously at the first time of steamboat and i realised, wad a waste man. haha. nvm la.. time to move on. i guess in 2 weeks time mr greedy will be down frm my hp pouch le. =) yea. worried bout her luh. but in the end it turned out well!! feel happy for her! =) glad stuff turned out ok lo. i guess. haha. yea, MR was sick too, poor guy, so much to do so lil time to rest lo... lol.
when i went home the msg on sw proj totally pissed me off sia. i oso felt a bit sick le but i don't got the chance to rest lo. shit man. felt so anal when i on-ed my com ytd la. arghh. well. ytd night was the ultimate. i guess cuz of the steamboat it got heaty in my body, was running this slight fever liao lo. den reading all the stuff nearly killed me. ok i shud not deny this. there are so many times i felt like callin MR to talk to him lo, for at least someone to comfort me but when i nearly called i gotta cancel the call cuz he needs his rest more than i do. omg man. i was literally writhing on my bed when i finished my stuff la. like shit can he gimme a call now. arghhh. ok this is weird lo, but at this point of time when i need comfort the first guy i tot of was him le. last time seein kmkz's name on msn is enuff to keep me gng liao. haha, now its a change huh. hmmmmm. but anyway the damn night passed lo, like finally. but i still feel hot now. as in feverish hot. gross feeling sia.
wed, 21/10/09
day of sch lo, wad else man? the chin lec was quite funny though. haha. but yea, the whole time i was talkin to MR. thru sms. haha. woots, he is gettin more and more, ~~~~~~~, haha the stuff he say really make hair stand huh. LOL. but i an shuang la.... haha. but its so nice having someone to talk nice stuff to ya after a whole period of dan lian and 1 day of illness. haha. finally cheng until the end of the lectures le..
on my way home i tot of ikea agn. suddenly had this feeling to rearrange my room lo, so it will be damn spacious. woots, damn excited bout the idea la. i can almost feel myself in the new arrangement of my room le can. its gonna have a new cabinet, wadeva u call it, a beanbag sofa, and a nice rug. omg this seems super cosy la!!! haha. free frm the messy messy times le sia. =)
ok i guess i need to go back to work now lo, dunno why i had this weird weird feeling when he nv reply me on msn. hmmmm. one ton of you. hahah
10/21/2009 09:07:00 PM
Monday, October 19, 2009
feeling anal?
haha, my title for this post is feeling anal lo.
indeed i am feeling a bit irritated.
i just tot of the confession and i was pissed by it.
so wad do u take me as huh?
wad are you tryin to achieve?
am i just one of the other noobs u r tryin to kidd?
gosh, dunno why i got this feeling la. irritates me sia
good thing i've got my nissin laksa to console me. haha
it never failed to do so =)
food!!!
ok this is a random post but yaa, at least i said out my bu-shuang-ness. haha
back to doin sw report le! last part..
10/19/2009 09:39:00 PM
change my life?
damn, i suddenly realised i dun wanna live llife like that anymore
there are much for stuff for me to do lo
but i am just wastin my time away
i freakin know it for goodness sake
but i am not doing anything to change it
facebook is killing me, it is taking my life away
but it is a horrible addiction
i've really gotta put my priorities first
arghh
i am feeling damn
anal now
first time i am stuck with an assignment
shit man
i tink uni is makin me getting more and more stupid
it toned me down so much
i freaking wanna go back to the old times
when i can still get to train with my dears
walking by chung cheng lake
enjoy the trouble-less life in sec sch
time is never gonna turn back
i will never get the chance agn
i hate the hectic life of Singapore
it totally sucksTOTALLYdamn, i was feeling damn lousy luh~ hence the double post on one day. indeed, fuck singapore life man. but i dun tink i have the rights to complain here though. heh. i just hope the end of the world will really come soon so i dun have to worry about what is gonna happen to me in 4 yrs time?
BAM!! MAY THE WORLD BE DESTROYED!!
10/19/2009 02:55:00 AM
Sunday, October 18, 2009
pool session?
haha. another nice day of slackin. went out the whole day luh~! MR got the car from his boss, so we went arnd with it. yea, had nice indo food at TM den watched 500 days of summer lo. haha, quite a hmmmmm show but ok la.. haha. den went for pool at parkway! like finally we went there le, but seriously i tink i suck at pool la, or maybe he is good? shit man, i tink guys arnd me seriously play pool well lo. haha. and ya, C classic is damn nice. feel is damn good la, but sadly today i nt in the correct mood to play lo. after that we had a long long chat in the car. haha. chattin agn huh. loads of stuff said sia. but then he gotta lend the car to kok so yea, went back to my area lo. =) anyway we were late and kok was pissed, i tink. haha. nv see him b4 sia. and he stays arnd my area. hmmm. went for dinner arnd my house area. the mussels are damn good sia. yumms!!! heh. yea, saw another of his fren luh~. woa, i tink i've seen like almost the whole of his clique le? haha.
he told me he like me ytd, but seriously, i feel we still have a long way to go. no. he has. now the feel is just attraction? yea, he admits to it too. haha. the long long chat today is really useful. and yea, i believe attraction will not bring you anywhere far lo. haha, there was no answer to the confession from me. it just went pass. hmmm, i feel he still wants us to be friends first? yes. i oso tink so luh~. haha. wad a weird thing. this is happening way beyond the rate that i expected. yea man. mr greedy is still on my phone pouch. will it be down soon? and how soon will it be? lol.
julia is damn sian bout all the things that is going on lo. shit man i shud nt have taken up the post at vice pres for cs. rawr! but its slowly gettin up. i feel? i see the plan is there, volunteers are there, but how am i gonna approach them sia. i feel so inefficient. hmmm. there is still a proj submission waitin for me sia. sian sian sian!!! and i seriously dunno how to start doing it la! arghh. ok i muz get back to work le, so much of procrastination sia, lol.
10/18/2009 10:31:00 PM
Friday, October 16, 2009
SW indv assignment
woa. it damn fast luh, its the end of the week alrd. hmmm, time is passing so fast that i hardly ever realised wad i'm doing. it seems like i've been slackin my whole year 1 sem 1 away luh~. juz finish tushing our my sw indv assignment which is due tmr 5pm. hmmmm. there seem to be so much to do but so little time for every thing, or probably its just me wasting my life away?
went to haw par villa for a real walk today. hmmm. its real nice lo, but a bit eerie to walk all alone in the big garden with the figurines around you that seem to come to life anytime you turn your head away. i guess i should have gone with someone else. haha the chance will come. =) anyways, really wanted to stay there and stone for arnd 2 hrs but i guess i cannot bring myself to do it cuz i felt uneasy there. lol. spent half an hr finish walkin thru the whole place lo. really hope i could have had someone's shoulders to lie on, or just someone walkin right beside me o feel i'm nt alone. heh.
wanted to visit grandma in the hospital today but mum said that she is discharged le. lol. felt happy but guilty. guilty that i din manage to find time to go down to visit her but happy she is fine now. =) the hospital does not seems a really friendly place to me lo. hmmm
lookin back at the message history with MR, i realised we've been talkin for arnd 3 weeks le? wow it seems damn fast lo. lol. yea man. i concluded he is a nice good guy. haha. but this may not mean much ya? lol
gonna meet up wif waihan tmr le. like damn long nv see him le la, finally after sometime i'm gonna meet him. gosh both him n young all the same one, once they got attached the gals are put in first priority. sia la. how bout ur good fren here who is still alone and waiting for the right one to come by. i'm gonna mug wh tmr le. haha. and he's gonna meet me cuz his gal initiated it. wow, i dun have a good feeling bout this.
eh when ning leave i tink i will miss her a lot a lot, yea man. but hope the 70 days pass damn fast and we'l be able to have our heart to heart chats agn, BELAY TEAM!! haha
when the day mr greedy is off my phone pouch, it will be indication that i moved on le. lol. frm kmkz. haha. then i guess i will owe that to the few ppl arnd me luh~. lol
gosh i realise today's entry is so haphazard, seems like there is totally no link at all luh. hmmmm.
quote:
我给你最后的疼爱是手放开
...
把爱收进胸前左边口袋
(手放开,李聖杰)Labels: 手放开
10/16/2009 01:15:00 AM
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
interview with tc
din blog for the past few days le. it seems a long long time since i blogged, mebbe its cuz i din get to talk and bitch and.. wadeva lo.. lol.
what happened on mon? hmmm, mon got sch till damn late huh. den met up wif MR at night for him to help me out wif my work lo. help me out wif interview which is due the next day? haha damn heng i finished it in time. gosh, i learnt so many things frm him la, insurance, work, planning of career. wow. its totally so cool, esp when he drew the map out lo. LOL. thats wad a mature man will do sia. hmmm. its so nice hearing people talk bout their plans in future and the stuff lo. feel so happy for them, esp if it turn out well and right. wahaha. yea went back at 11 plus. he sent me home lo. ok everytime we go out is he send me home de. haha. mon is ok ok, feeling floaty lo.
next day i woke at 6am to do my hw la, the interview. haha. feels damn slack can? like some last min work. lol. but glad stuff went well. hehe. oh ya oh ya, before i left my house i found my wallet right at my doorstep sia, like it magically appeared lo. WOW! though the money is gone le i'm still happy other stuff nv get missin. haha. muz thank lao tian and everyone, who helped me prayed and... blah blah blah. but yea. first person i called was MR. like damn happy la. cuz he was there with me all the while when my wallet was gone. hmmmm. julia is lucky! yay. den wad. when to sch lo. told my prof sth MR said to me. beauty is not visual, it is not only bout looks, but it comes from within too. haha. prof was sayin maybe mature guys have different mentality from the guys now who only look at looks? then slowly to the inner beauty haha. and yes, i rem him sayin smarter girls are more attractive. haha totally man. after lesson when y agn, to get ready for tri uniy camp meeting? i was the only NUS rep sia. heh a bit de sian cuz i was nt in the situation sia. distracted, tired, eyes closin, so yaaa. a bit the sian. though meetin val val and jing was fun. heh. plus the few other uniy's people. LOL. after meetin was dinner tgt. supposed to find grandma cuz she hospitalized lo, but it was past the visitation time when meetin ended, so forget it le lo. hmmmm. blah blah blah.
when i reach home den i realise i forgot to bring my lappy adaptor n charger home can? cannot read my stuff usin com lo. gotta print so much rubbish using the damn desktop la, damn irritatin sia. haha. plus the readings all in trad chin characters, damn siann. sms-in MR when readin. it was damn nice of himto call me back when i din reply him for 15 mins la. if he nv call i sure wun go n slp de. i was supposed to finish the readings b4 i slp but cuz of the call i could slp properly la. end up he din slp well n din need my morn call. hahaha. he called my big sweet potato in canto =(, for leaving my stuff arnd, sia la he is one big one can. hahaa
wed morn chiong to sch sia. tired tired tired!! the first person i talked to was him agn. got a call to ask if i woke liao. hahaha. i'm nt so slack can. heh. talked to yin yue after so long lo. damn nice. she is damn super funny n slack like me can? haha. yea man. after that went to y to get my adaptor. but detoured to haw par villar to see see look look. sia la. its as nice as ever, but as miserable as ever, almost no one in there la, but still, its a super serene place. i tink i will go there to mug sia, wif all the nice nice scenery and stuff, that is crazy sia. heh. din explore cuz i was afraid it rain and i'm stranded there. lol. had another chat with him on my way to y lo. lol, on the phone. omg, i realised these few days its really him everywhere la. juz now juz after tuition we met up agn for dinner, acty its beef horfun but no space to park!!! so went to joo chiat for wanton mee. hahaha. nice time huh.
finally i found time to blog lo. like v long nv blog liao. feels so good getting my emotions and wad i wanna say out of my mind. lol. there is just this one more thing i wanna add on. smart guys are attractive, dumb guys are irritatin. haha. shit man this is gettin bitchy agn, but sometimes when stuff is like so duh you still ask for what, its damn dumb la.. arghhh. cannot take it sia. sometime i really feel pek chek talkin to the nt so clever guy. nvm nvm. i muz ren, cuz he is still concerned lo. ok this is nt bout MR. haha. i feel he is a smart matured guy. and he will attract girls de lo, like seriously. haha. ok la i guess thats about it.
today's quote is nt a song, its wad someone said:
beauty is not visual.
Labels: beauty is nt visual
10/13/2009 03:13:00 PM
Sunday, October 11, 2009
outing wif tc?
today is a great n bad day lo. heh. acty quite excited b4 gng out sia? dunno why. and yup, cuz of some delay me n MR met at 12. haha i guess a nickname will be better? heh. he is damn nice luh~ this is my conclusion bout him. nice to other people nt i dunno la, but to me, i guess it feels good. lol. movie is at 1pm, phobia2. we went to have quick quick lunch first den went for the movie lo. gosh the ending is damn sucky sia. irritatin la. and its nt scary lo. a bit of a disappointment sia. but after that we were walkin arnd KLP den headed off to parkway lo.
at parkway when we went to c classic when i realised my wallet is GONE. omg!! was stunned but ya, i dun feel worried sia. i seriously dunno why. with MR arnd i feel that anything can be solved sia. omg what kinda mentality sia. den we went everywhere to find my wallet la. parkway, carpark, cinema, pet shop. everywhere we went sia. heh n he was ferryin me arnd lo. damn nice of him arrrr. lol. and he's feelin guilty bout me gng out wif him den i lost my wallet. lol. totally nt his fault la. but ya, vv comforting with him arnd. den he was the one who acc me to make a police report lo. sia la first time into a police post. heh. den we went to ecp to have this vv long chat, cuz i was feeling emo. heh. v nice talkin to him lo. we talked about a lot a lot of things under the sun
literally under the sun, the setting sun, but it was too cloudy to see the setting sun. still, nice weather atmosphere chat. really a great day. i felt comfortable with him arnd, seriously.
sia la, a mature guy arnd, felt a small sense of security. lol. and ya, felt that he is really intelligent, nt the academic kind but the street-wise kind, and lowers down his standard to talk to a immature kid like me lo. heh. that feels nice. really appreciated lo. =) really nice to have someone to talk to so well, n i hope he is my co leader this camp sia. lol. den i tink i wun screw up the camp le. lol. for now i guess he can be put as a nice fren? LOL. i din tink of kmkz today cuz of this outing, yay! another day of less misery.. haha. one more thing, he set the song i sent him as his ringtone luh~. haha. midnight romeo...=)
quote:
爱我的人对我痴心不悔
我却为我爱的人,甘心一生伤悲
在乎的人始终不对
谁对谁不必虚伪
爱我的人为我付出一切
我却为我爱的人,流泪狂乱心碎
爱与被爱同样受罪
为什么不懂拒绝,痴情地包围
《爱我和我爱的人》
Labels: 爱我和我爱的人
10/11/2009 10:19:00 PM
Saturday, October 10, 2009
back frm halloween night
finally i'm back frm ycon after the halloween night. damn seh sia. slpt for about 1 hr den choing for y con le. plus all the lipstick marks on my face cannot be removed le lo. (sounds scandalous^^) but yea. it sucks to have everyone, esp the boys, askin why ur face like that one. haha. plus i gotta wear a cap due to my now green hair. heh. damn mafan luh. this is all due to a moment of chong dong-ness. haha. i tink the lipstick will be damn scary so i bua quite a lot, now everything is stuck to my face and it is quite gross lo. tmr cannot go out liao laa. =( den wad, the hair oso the same. next time i go for ycon i muz bring cap along le lo. cuz of my hair and someone says it is bad influence to the boys. oh wells, looks like my sadistic level alrd up one level, to the 自讨苦吃 level le. LOL. i really like my hair though. hehe
after the round of halloween party i came to stuffs i noted bout lo. val val sorta proved it true that honeymoon period in a relationship does not only last for 1 mth to 2 yrs due to attraction when ur hormones are raging and there is some physiological changes leading to attraction to the specific person for the period of time. after the honeymoon period is over there will be nt much left to sustain the relationship. but yea. she proved it otherwise. very very envious when she says she misses her boyfriend. well, i guess it is a bliss to love someone and get the feelings reciprocated yea? happy for val =) and yea. time will pass vv soon. no worries to val yup? hehe. i look forward to getting such a strong relationship. thank val for injecting some hope to what i feel about such stuffs lo.
during the long long chat at night b4 we slp (and that was wad caused us frm all slpin for only a short short period of time say 1 hr plus?) the topic really got me thinking bout me n him now. ok i shall give him a name too, uuhhmmm, kmkz for kamakazee? haha yea. seriously, they asked me a question that left me thinkin, what do i really see in him that kept my crush going? what do i like bout him lo. well, rather stuck at this question. hmmm. at first it was chemistry ba, attraction? yup, you wun noe wad kinda stuff can such bodily changes cause. then due to the constant suanning of someone that i start to see more good of him? being with him makes me feel really comfortable luh~. but that was during the start when we knew each other? yea. he really give me that kinda feeling that i feel he is a guy that i like. yea.. like, aiya i dunno how to say la, though he is playin arnd all the time he is the kinda guy that really thinks deep into the situations and consider circumstances? considerate thinking i would say. hmm. this is the biggest part that attracted me. other things like cute behavior and stuff. makes me <3... hahaha, but ya, recently due to some dunno incident we nv really talk le. not really close as b4 le lo. i feel its a waste but the feelings are still there.. yes it sucks with no common topic and stuff like that, but being with him make me happy enough. its only when i tink about the dist b/w physical bodies and the dist b/w the hearts, its so freakin near yet far, this will sure make me emo luh...... haizzzz. well i need time to sort out my feelings but as of now, i think 走一步算一步. dun wanna think of it for the moment.
another thing, gosh, i feel unfair at times. when we were back at the table talkin bout our stuff erm some guy was sitting there. ok i know its wrong but i have a bit of thing to bitch bout him lo. hmmm. he is always listening to our woes and emo little secrets and everything. expects us to let him know everything and keep him involved but does he do the same to us too? i dun feel it lo. he is always keeping everything to himself. when you ask what is going on with him he always say nothing. like, man, this is wad frenz are for. i dun believe you have no problems that you wanna share with someone lo. but like, i dun feel like a close enuff fren lo. like i keep telling you stuff and you are not confiding into me, nt even to anyone. gosh, like, why liddat, mebbe he dun wanna bother us with his problems since we have so many problems at hand le. but he seem to always want to be part of everything. for our little chats, i tink he will express his dissatisfaction in us not telling him stuff lo. then what, threaten us? hmmm. this is our little secrets yea? ok i shall stand firm when i need to but i just feel it is unfair, at least to me. but ya la, i am the one sharing my stuff with him so i dun tink i have the rights to say anything here. hmmm.
he's getting from bad to worse luh~. i understand the situation of being involved in every activity, but when some stuff dun even concern you why are you involved too? why is he like everywhere for every single activity. like, ok, i noe you wanna be in, but isn't that getting a bit too far? it is even getting on to my nerves lo, so i guess probably the situation getting worse le? now it seems like i am drawin the line clear now but ya, it gets a bit irritatin when you are also there in stuff that don't concern you yea? omg. i'm bitchin so much agn. ok, but hope he changes for the better, though i seriously dunno how to tell this to him. haizz..
alrite, enough of bitching la. today y con was nt bad but nt v good either. lol. din like the rainy weather sia. it sucks, but yea. it stopped magically, like wad bf junlong said. WOW. we got to kayak but it wasn't that sorta good cuz there is so little chance to kayak lo. =( but still i tink the boys n volunteers did get to enjoy a bit of the kayakin ba. haha. keepin an eye on them today was a bit tiring but i guess victor help us made the situation easier after the warning for the boys. lol. realised they are actually cooperative in nature but they wanna act cool so thats why they din wanna do stuff. lol. empathize with amanda and jan and chikki. omg this is like half of my team? hmm. amanda, really tough for her cuz her buddy is so cold towards her luh. poor gal we see wad we can help yea? chikki, lucky or nt lucky for him his buddy din get to kayak. gosh this is bad. how is he gonna survive camp with his buddy when the bondin is still nt there. haiz. jan, omg, really hope that she feel so bad bout her buddy sia, but that is my fave pair out of my ycon grp, the rapport they built up. omg. this is good, but hope it juz stays as a platonic relationship yea? haha
woo finally get all the rubbish out of my heart le. it sucks to be kept in sia. LOL. this post is made up of 2 parts cuz one part is when i was waitin for my hair to dry b4 i go to slp, the other is after i wake frm my sleep. hehe. julia had a big achievement today! she manage to not follow ahem all the way down le. juju can stay firm and learn nt to go places that don't concern me to waste time cuz someone is there. haha.
tmr is sun le. hmmmm. we'll see how it goes luh~. haha, dunno if i'm lookin forward to it or nt lo. lol......
10/10/2009 03:58:00 PM
Thursday, October 8, 2009
nice thursday!
today is damn xiong sia. after u**y meeting in sch i chiong-ed down y for another meeting.
omg i got stuff to complain sia. heng heng bek is on my side lo. the y staff are so ambitious la. omg. expand mini y camp to like wad? 100 benes. b**** la sia. den its nt a mini y camo anymore. how can this be possible sia. ok, though y camp has the framework done le, but still. u tink benes will wanna go for camp for 4 times a yr meh? den if yes, the volunteers where got so xiong wanna do so many camps de. omg laa. shit man i really feel like bitchin but i dunno how to express myself. another one is the adventure quest thing. i tot we'l start small so we'll be lookin at 20 plus pax. den wad? suddenly bomb 80 benes. omg, den the benes dun need to go for camp liao sia. this adventure quest thing can be y con for benes den they still got 4 camps la. seriously i tink this is a bit too much, plus still muz let it run for 9 mths. F*** man. will this be some superman thing. and the more clever thing is. staff was sayin its big boss de idea so we shud go about doin it. but have they tot bout how to implement it? like argghhhh. find volunteers, wanting them to commit, make sure they are free. pls la. this is damn bloody ambitious can? shit man. i bitch so much will have karma de lo. later some y staff find it out i jiu die liao. lol. but still, damn i cannot help but express my emotions here. damn.... still really muz thank bek for standing wif me bout startin out small. cuz like, really too ambitious la.
but otherwise, y camp meeting was so much more realistic sia. seeing the comm really brighten up my day. gosh, be it the old comm or the new comm, i guess today's meetin was nt bad though we dragged till arnd 11 plus. heh, got tc to send me home, dun need to take bussss!!! and ya, realistic stuff. now i compare u**y meeting wif the staff and y camp meeting, damn i hope vic can be part of u**y staff lo. haha. thanks chaos so much for helpin us along the way lo. dun tink he will find this la but ya, really appreciate his protection hehe.
well for the moment still can cope i guess. lemme live for the moment. lookin forward to the next 3 days, fri got party, sat y con, sun out! yay!
okkkk. i'm waitin. waitin. waitin for ..... to come online. FASTERRR!!!
10/08/2009 11:54:00 PM
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
perplexed?
yet another day of slackin at home. sia la how i wish every week in uni is elearning week. its damn shuang can. LOL. everything is own time own target lo. heh.
juz now while packin my room sth dropped out of my jeans. saw the note one of my grp bbh boys gave me lo. lol, read it thru agn. damn satisfied to actually get a boy open up to me. probably i din do much n its his buddy that helped him along lo, but still i damn happy he wrote that note to me sia.. one fulfilling accomplishment from my grp guys. LOL. hmmm, probably that reassurance that i am doing ok? so yup. pat on julia's back! keep up the good work. i alrd kept the note nicely in a file of encouragements le lo, tgt wif previous y camp's simba's notes. haha.
hmmm, he's been giving me a bit of problem over here. he'l be named mr A? things he say is suggestive, but i really have doubts about what he is doin is out of erm... for fun? boredom? lets hope wad i see from his actions are not true, esp after i told him i have a crush on someone le. well, these still continue, dunno wads gng on sia. hmmm. his actions are leaving me perplexed lo. like shit, wad am i supposed to do? believe in the words? play along? play dumb and act that i dunno anything? lol. hope i get the ling gan to ask him bout it soon lo. really dunno how to ask him about what is he thinking. but its really nice talkin to him. haha. if the HE does that so nicely jiu hao le. haiz.
what a contradiction, how contradictory. damn....
in the morn while talkin to ning she sent me this song crush. damn its really nice lo. n describe me n him de situation now la. 完全说出了我心里的话. totally wanna dedicate this song to him can? arghhhhh.
quote:why do i keep running from the truth?all i ever think about is youyou got me hypnotized, so mesmerizedand i've just got to knowdo you ever think, when you're all aloneall that we can be, where this thing can goam i crazy or falling in love?is it real or just another crush?do you catch a breath, when i look at you?are you holding back, like the way i do?cuz i'm tryin and tryin to walk awaybut i know this crush ain't going away.......see it's a chance we've gotta takecuz i believe that we can make this into something that can lastlast forever, forever(crush, david archuleta)Labels: crush
10/07/2009 11:13:00 PM
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
reflective mode
when i was on bus back frm daybreak FSC juz now i suddenly tot of me suanning tc bout him being scary n he wants to self-reflect. haha. i guess i had a long enuff bus-ride to self reflect a little lo lol.
there are really many roles a person actually plays when in this society and we all juz let it pass, or take it on ourselves. or we are so used to it that we take it for granted that these are the roles we need to play. oh wells. i realised these few roles in my life luh~.. haha
- being my parents' daughter
- being an elder sister
- being a student in sch
- being a volunteer (leader)
- being a person an lian-in someone
- being a friend's friend
- being someone in singapore
- being some being in the world
soo many roles to take on, so much responsibilities to take up. but no one seem to complain huh. lol. ok mine is juz really little roles only lo. other people have more, someone's employee, someone's father, blah blah blah. heh. i really feel probably i haven fulfill these responsibilities to the max lo. will playin a better role in each different character bring about better environment for everyone?
for 1, have I been a good girl, not letting mummy angry? have I been trying to meet their expectations? will i be able to support them in the future like how they supported me now? will I be filial even after i got my family next time?
for 2, have i gave my sis sufficient attention so that she learns well? have i been neglecting her so much that we are not really close now? have I guide her to the path where i think will be good for her? do i dote on her but at the same time be strict enough wif her?
for 3, have i given enough attention to my studies? have i been hogging on to facebook for a long long time? do i even give my studies the required attention? lol!
for 4, being a leader. have i done my very best? have i been putting conscious effort in doing all i can? do i go it cuz of own initiative or juz cuz i wanna please people? do i even learn form what i am doing? am i really happy being a leader or i am happy juz cuz i get to be near .....?!
for 5, oh wells, i seriously think i have given too much attention to this part. izzit really needed? or is it juz redundant cuz he wun even noe it and dun appreciate it? this is the worst part sia. izzit even worth all my attention? gosh.
for 6, am i really being a good fren to everyone? do i, at times, complain and bitch bout them? do i worth the good friends that i have around me? do i appreciate them a lot? hmmmm.
for 7&8, have i done my part well. seriously i dun care but this statement had alrd stated probably i haven fulfilled my responsibilities as a citizen.
wooo. this is really a chunk of reflective questions. i feel these are really superficial stuff la, but ya. these were what was going thru my mind on the bus. but if i were to fulfill all these responsibilities wun i be too tired to do other things? den it seems like i am living for others. mebbe what i am doing now is just right. it has juz stuck a balance between being true to myself, able to enjoy my life, but at the same time, still let the others have a nice time around me. hmmm. this is wad i think though. lol. a bit philo huh. LOL
oh wells, its in the near future when i have the answers to these questions lo. lol.
quote: Everytime we touch i get this feeling and everytime we kiss i swear i could flycan you feel my heart beat fast i want this to lastneed you by my sideAnd everytime we touch i feel ecstaticEverytime we kiss i reach for the skies.can you feel my heart beat slow, i cant let you gowant you in my life....(everytime we touch, cascada)Labels: everytime we touch
10/06/2009 05:15:00 PM
Monday, October 5, 2009
e learning week
heard this new song on radio, forgot which channel la, called midnight romeo by push play i tink. rite, this is the kinda genre i like, hmmm, rock? yup. romeo, juliet and romeo. is he really the right romeo for me? in my life? lol. i really dun wanna doubt that. cuz he really fills my <3 completely lo. lol, till the point that it is 无可救药. ok mebbe nt so kua zhang la. but the idea is there.
how do you know if someone thinks deep? thru actions? words you say? wadeva. i guess its hard to show how one thinks deep ba? but does not mean they don't think k? hmmm. i'm still pondering and munching on the words i was told a few days ago. lol.
elearning week starts le!!! damn slack la, dun need to go sch for the damn lectures. lol. but i still gotta go sch or somewhere near sch later, tues, thurs and fri lo, which equals to no holiday? hmmmm. later 1 hr philo tut, tues pool session at wcrc, thurs got uni y meeting at sch lib, fri got social work tut. hmmmm. all go sch for such a short short while only la. damn irritatin!!! haha. ok i guess i'm in the middle of psyc elearning lec now and was distracted by the nice nice blog skin thats up there so started blogging le lo. hehe.
one random thing, i like my turquoise hair. heeeeeeee. hope the colour just stays but this is rather impossible lo. hmmm. i guess tonight i shall blog a bit more. thats all for the moment.
alrite this is continued from the afternoon post. i juz rem granddad went for his Alzheimer's check-up last fri. mum says doc saes he dun have such disease or brain degradation lo. he has all these weird behavior juz to attract attention from people arnd him. omg. i dunno if this is goood or bad la. good that he is quite fine(though i suspect he really has mild dementia but still not very bad) or bad that people are ignoring him? hmmm, now probably i need to make the effort to go down and visit him ba, but i keep having reservations about going to find him lo. hmmm, this internal struggle is killing me sia. ok mebbe its not killing la. i keep pushing my responsibilities away and escaping from this reality. dunno what to do lo. i feel not ready to talk to granddad yet la, but, he is my granddad. haha. contradictions man. haiz, shall 走一步看一步,船到桥头自然直. things will get better i guess. lol. heng i had interactions wif the dementia old people before lo, for sw visit so yea, guess i'm a bit more experienced? juz by a bit. heh. will utilize this knowledge de.
hope life is still happy-go-lucky for me. i look forward to fri's halloween night ><
quote:
ok no quote, i wanna quote midnight romeo but it seems a bit inappropraite, but its a nice song! hehe
Labels: midnight romeo
10/05/2009 11:42:00 AM
Sunday, October 4, 2009
fairytales
man, i never believe that fairytales ever exists. but i really hope one will happen to me. what is this man? irony? knowing something will not happen but still hope it will happen? i start to feel emo la. haha.
its always like that luh~. the guy i like wun like me de. why man? i feel like quoting another song but i tink i quoted it b4 liao
quote:
难道我就这样过我的一生
我得吻注定吻不到最爱的人...
(从开始到现在,张信哲)yea. this sounds sad but i really feel my future relationship life really very 渺茫. i'm only yr one lo, but it seems like i dun have much time left to find my right one and have fun b4 i go on to work next time. 4 yrs. if i am gonna spend the next few year continue liking him den i will like him until i end my studies? it wun be reciprocated, i am very sure of this. so i am gonna waste all the whole 4 years? haizzz. seriously i look forward to everytime we meet. everytime we talk. i miss those days that i really get to talk to you every single day lo. and the replies are damn quick la. those where the days, gone and will never be back. really really miss it. everytime i see u i really wanna tell you my feelings la. it sucks to be kept in there. sucks. totally. =(
oh wells, i tink my blue hair is makin me blue la. baddd. juju cannot emo sia. muz be happy! heh. conquer the blues, look forward to the bright sunshine!
Labels: 从开始到现在
10/04/2009 12:30:00 PM
welcome back =)
woooo. damn freakin long nv blog le. haha. i suddenly have the feel to blog today sia. hehe. so go julia! and i realised its almost one year when i touched my blog. haha
rite, for some updates, me is in nus fass le lo. wanna major in psyc. hope things goes well for me thruout the 4 yrs. life now revolves arnd sch pool n ymca only lo. seldom get to see mummy daddy n sis sia. when i am home its always late le so its hard to see them. miss mummy n daddy! joined cuesports as cca lo. juz got blue highlight on my hair ytd. gosh, wanted it to b blue but it came out turqoise. still nt bad i guess, but the y ppl sae it looks like algae. wahaha. alrite. thats about it la.
hmmmmm. uni life is good. quite slack n everything lo, though is missed out all the orientation stuff i still made a few good frenz. hehe. meetin soulmate? i guess nt. someone in mind le lo. haha. good thing i am in FASS n took all arts mods so i guess i'm nt that stressed le? haha soon la i tink the stress will step in in sem 2 lo, when my cap cannot get what i want. LOL.
yea. today the y ppl celebrated yiwei's bdae den mid autumn festival tgt. haha. seriously, when i am nt wif my sch mates i am wif y ppl le lo, one day see them for dunno how many days sia. hehe. but seriously i'l miss the times gng out wif them, cuz i can unglam to wadeva extend and its a norm cuz everyone is UNGLAM!! wahaha. and also cuz of...... went to watch cloudy with a chance of meatballs? eh dunno wads the title but the show was quite funny. lol laughed till peng la. heh. rite that was the most recent thing that happened so wrote it first. heee. the other big thing today was celebrating yiwei's bdae at smu lo. damn funny sia, he walked level 1 of SOB wif the noisy lantern n windmill kinda thing. rite. if it were me i'l juz dig a hole n hide in sia. wahaha.
yet another thing that happened was picnic at ymca. haha, at y AGN!! wanted to go henderson waves but tian bu zuo mei. nvm we still had fun i guess. i still have the leftover 7-up in my bag that i'm lazy to take out. gosh. i feel so happy today! always look forward to sats lo. hahaha
yea, i was treated like a kid yet agn. mebbe i really have a kid mentality? haha. yea, i'm nt as innocent as a kid pls. everyone esp him thinks i am. damn, i am aware of stuff gng on la sia, juz diam diam dun sae doesn't mean i dunno rite? hur! nvm, this is for people to realise n nt for me to comment about ba? mebbe i'm really kiddish. haiz. deep thinker? think deep? oh wells. mebbe the connection in my brain to think deep have nt been set up, soon it'l be up. heh. and, i argue back ur suggestions does nt mean i am stubborn i ignore ur suggestion luh~. cuz at my part i will try to change la, but u dunno the real reason of me havin such mentality sia. u really dunno. n u presume u noe it. yea, so much for reading a kid. wells i guess i really should put in effort too. haha, i hope and dun hope he will see this. project BBQ will commence today. hahaa at the point when the post is posted.
one more thing. i really wun find my soulmate in sch oso le lo. it sucks man, totally, to have someone fill ur heart fully n he doesn't know it. or mebbe he knows it but tries to ignore it? ain't that F-in obvious? or is he tryin nt to spoil the frenship? haha. the 镜中花 , 水中月 ; 可望不可及 de feelin really pisses the shit out of me sia. man. he is always so near yet so far away from me. HOW?!?! sob sob. 2 days ago i tot of confessin to him sia. thought bout the scenario, how am i gonna tell him, wad am i gonna say, in wad form am i gonna express my feelings and wad to hope for after the confession. damn, its really tiring doing all these waitin. damn he muz have been the longest crush after sec sch de. haha. hong hong lie lie sia.
quote:
爱情的计时炸弹快要爆炸 我的情绪你晓得吗?
当你抚摸我的头 发我又为你心跳十下
(计时炸弹,潘嘉丽)heys, i still remember the quotes i used to have for every blog post sia. guess its been in my long term memory le lo. haha really really hope and dun hope he reads my blog, but yea, i guess there will be a lot more of such parts in future posts lo, since now i have my lappy wif me le. heh. i feel that my heart really goes all the way out to him le lo. the time i get it back is really after i biao bai and see that there is no hope at all le. he is so bing shan how to even melt the ice when my fire is not hot enough, or when my fire is still not penetrative. i tink i muz be the Sun sia. heh, of any supernovas lo. to burn his ice mountain.
facebook says i should move on and not waste time on him anymore, really, i start to think so too, but its damn hard to pet it go, esp when i'm really so obsessed wif him. well the pea has a meaning to it too. heh.
so much bout him, guess the next post i will have summore quotes to describe him de?
one more thing, i feel really really happy for my damn good fren sia.
mood: happy!Labels: 计时炸弹
10/04/2009 12:18:00 AM