Tuesday, October 5, 2010
看后感
因为这出戏是内地戏,所以以上就用花纹来写这则博客。
看了这出戏之后, 突然有了我婚宴的理想。
我不享有雪白雪白的婚礼,我要一个特别的。想了想,想到了两个颜色主题,一,粉红色的烂漫婚礼;二,蓝色的梦幻婚礼。
觉得这两个颜色都不错,也不如一般的纯洁似的白茫茫一片,但我对蓝色较有偏袒。
man, it sucks typing in chinese. ok back to english haha.
this will be the wedding ceremony only, not the banquet in some restaurant or wad. hmmm.
a pretty blue wedding, a dreamy kinda theme. lovey dovey. backdrop will of course be the bright blue sky. clear sky, with white fluffy clouds floating by. tables and chairs will be blue in colour. it will be held in the open. soft music in the background, played by a life band, music genre is blues and jazz. dress code for guests is fluffy. like fluffy white dresses, for guys, white tux eh? =) as long as the colours are the warm pastel colours. me, i will come out in a pretty blue gown, fluffy too! my love will be in this light blue tux too. manz. i feel like i am in the situation alrd luh.
dreaming and dreaming about it le. =)
the carpet will not be red. i want it to be white. so it feels like i am stepping on the clouds to reach the final point where the marriage is being witnessed. cupid statues ( or pictures or models) will be there, the stage will have a greek mythology kind of theme.
the marriage song will be in jazz version. changed the idea of the song from rock version to jazz version. more soothing and not so traditional too. hehe.
as we walk down the white carpet hand in hand, there are little kids behind scattering flower petals. the flower petals will have many many colours. red, pink, blue, purple. whatever colours there will be it will be on the flowers. as we walk down the clouds, when we finally reach the stage, a traditional post will be there, where the person who witness this reads the vow and we both say i do.
during the exchanging of the ring there will be blues music playing at the background. the rings will be damn cool. it will not be the traditional diamond ring. it will be a sapphire ring. simply cuz the wedding theme is blue.
and when ceremony is over. refreshments will be available. heh. on a blue cloth long table. there will be many many kinds of cakes and desserts. yummy! of course. each guest is supposed to eat a cotton candy. its a must!! they get to eat the pretty clouds and have a dreamy feeling. there will be a 吃在嘴里,梦在心理 feeling.
aww manz. everything don't seem to make sense cuz i am having a lot of thoughts right now. but yup. hope my wedding ceremony will be something similar to this. cotton candy is a must must! =)
hehe thats all for today. wad a great contradiction from the previous post. now i feel contented already. it must be because of the pleasant things happening to me these few weeks. hope this continues... =)
Labels: 单亲公主乡亲记
10/05/2010 10:59:00 PM
Monday, September 13, 2010
i tink i'm suffering from depression
totally need a venue to talk about my feelings.
omg i feel like i am having a prolonged PMS. feel so damn pissed even at tiny things about you. sometimes i hope i dun ever wanna know you. and you nv know how i feel, and i dunno how to talk to you cuz i dunno how to talk my way out from you. you are always right, den me? did you listen to my point of view.
i value punctuality, you were nv early.
i hate people breaking their promises, and you always do it. unintentionally, but its done le. there is no way to change anything alrd.
because of you i feel so irritated by myself and cry at the smallest things.
can't concentrate on everything because i keep thinking about how u think about me, do you really put me in ur mind?
can't priortize, you are always the top, am i the case?
can't stop crying, i feel so sucky do you even know it?
you want support from me, do i get it from you? i am about to fall and die and are you there to talk to me about it. so fucking stressed up this week do you know? and there you go celebrate birthday happy happy did you even ask about me? then when u did u just ditch everything by saying i'm sorry. wow. if life is that great. haiz
do u even understand me?
i feel like i dun have all my social support le. feel like there is no one out there who can understand me, pamper me and gimme some life. no.
mebbe dying off may be a good idea. permanent solution to all the problems.
i think i am suffering from depression le. omg.
yes life takes a turn, to the worst of the worst.
who understands??
Labels: life takes a turn, to the worst of the worst.
9/13/2010 11:13:00 PM
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
I just want to talk to you
long time no blog. heh
ok thats nt the point. damn, emo days are coming agn. haiz. this is bad, getting emo for a prolonged period lo.
hmmm, last week had this damn bad tear session emo-in. bloody hell, getting more and more dependant on you. the emo day i kept thinking that i overestimated my place in ur heart. seems like work is more impt than me? izzit that i am too sensitive? first you take me and dominated my whole world. then you leave me alone and be so so busy with ur work. arghhh. fuvk. after that you called, sayin thats the first thing you do after you finish ur stuff. haiz. i'm alrd disappointed. wad else to say.
SA keep talkin to me nowadays. oh wells, tot he will be a form of entertainment for me to talk to him while waiting for ur reply. yea, somehow it did. dunno why there is this guilty feeling like i am doing sth wrong, but i am perfectly doing the right thing, its just chatting. but yea. chatting is nice, msn, sms. nice time chatting with him. but today i realised. how nice izzit if its you instead of him that is talkin to me. talkin to SA is nv a way to skip missing you. fuvk. this sucks man. damn ur job laaaaa.
manz... gimme more of ur attention can? i sound like a super despo now but yes. i'm still gonna say it. if you are nt gonna gimme so much of ur time please don't be so nice to me from the start. fuck.
arghhhhh...
Labels: attention....
1/26/2010 10:49:00 PM
Thursday, November 12, 2009
reflective...
reflective is from my sat's y con lo. asked my group to use one word to describe their whole ycon programme. i tink la. mine was reflective. really felt so lo. cuz i really reflected without the direct help from tom like the previous ycon what can i do to make this ycon a meaningful one for the group. haha. did a lot of reflections on the last ycon lo. so yea, thank jan for the cute picture on my knee, but too bad i din get the chance to take a pic of it and post it up here. haha. but wait, i dun tink i even posted pictures lo. so mafan. haha.
tues was quite a slack day. went to lee kong chian ref lib to study agn. totally love that place sia. quiet, many spaces, many books. great place. den at night met up wif him for dinner lo. gosh, damn scary lo, i was juz craving for wanton mee and he was like, lets go for wanton mee. lol!!
"有默契浪漫就不难." from wang li hong song.
yup, agreed. feel nice lo. haiz. wad if i dun need to stay at home. how nice will it be man. no time limit. "今夜有最适合谈心的天气,能不能晚点回去" RAWR!! another quote from the same song agn.
and that night i concluded that i dun like small cars. haha. dunno how ta get in sia.. -.-" haha
wed was a totaly slack day. spent my night waiting for a phone call that nv seem to come. hmmm. den when it finally came, it was such a short short while. damn, shan't complain le la. muz accommodate!! heh.
suddenly tot of sth that really made me wanna blog. the use of the word 'sacrifice' is really hurting. alrite it may be out as a joke, as sth to disturb me, but this is brought too far. gng out with me is really a sacrifice? izzit really that bad a thing, sacrifice ur slp and rest time to go out with me, damn, it a f-ing strong blow to me. ok. i think i thought about this enough to keep me awake till late night, time to move on. f**k the word sacrifice, u tink u sheep or pig? sacrifice. argghhhh.
heard a nice new song on radio in the car ytd. hmm, lets see, i tink its on tues? yup, 画沙 by jay chou and cindy yen, the song is damn good luh. melody by the gal, lyrics by fang wen shan. if the male singer weren't to be jay the song will be much better. hmmm, i guess, TANK or cao ge will make the song much nicer, seriously. yup its totally the kinda genre i like man. geezzz...
Quote:午后的风摇晃枝丫 抖落了盛夏我对着蝉认真说话 在对你牵挂晚风轻敲着海沙 浪堆积起无暇我跟纯真在比傻 爱上你放不下这风景如画 (开满凤凰凤凰花)院子里花撒 (挠灌着那种情话)等最美的晚霞 等故事长大用手中的流沙画一个你啊曾说过的永远我们一定不会擦我的青春开始在喧哗因为大声说爱你而沙哑用手中流沙轻描着你的脸颊也答应说好的未来绝不会重画许过的承诺我就不会再去拿因为我爱你呀将思念压成花 有你的记忆干燥成瓶中沙像沙漏般想着你滴滴答答擦美美的指甲 喝你泡的茶原来幸福可以这么优雅不论多大风沙 路多分岔 我一样找到你呀管它风怎么刮 管雨又怎么下 越痛我就越来 越潇洒不摘不属于自 己的花喔爱闪着泪光为你我可以当傻瓜这风景如画 (开满凤凰凤凰花) 院子里花撒 (挠灌着那种情话) 等我们的童话 等誓言落下(画沙,周杰伦与袁咏琳)Labels: 画沙
11/12/2009 12:19:00 PM
Monday, November 9, 2009
finally finish assignments!
julia nv blog for a long long time le!!!
haha i tink the last time i blogged was arnd 5 days ago? finally i'm free to blog lo. finish my last assignment, chin essay, last fri la. heh, last min work agn, finish the whole damn essay in 5 hrs. damn, i dun tink i'l do well lo, CAP sure screwed de. but nvm, wad i wan is psyc. heeee.
JULIA IS SO HAPPY HER SEM IS GONNA END!!!
but ya, with that, comes exams and then YCAMP! heh. excited luh!!!
anyway, after the completion of the assignment, went out wif MR to celebrate lo. okok la, nt really celebrate. when to bedok blk 85 to eat. heh, the lala is damn good lo! yummy, i'm so gonna go back there to eat agn man. julia feels hungry now. lol. oh ya talkin bout gng bedok, saw mayer di on wed when i went lo. heh. wads the face di gave me sia. but yup, MR complimented di, sae he damn handsome. of course handsome lo. my di can? lol.ya damn long nv see CCH wushu team ppl le. hmmm. wait till their exams finish sia. heh.
sun was a GREAT day. went ta watch poker king lo. long since i watch a chin movie. e!hub is good but he wasted like 8 bucks playin the pick the toy machine. haha. ya man. felt so damn relax on sun la, like finally all my dumb assignments all over le, can play happily le. but julia is gonna start mugging le. tmr shall go ref lib at nat lib to mug chin! gosh, that is like a treasure place la. so happy i found it, goodness, haha.
rite that about it. but ya, about 2 weeks ago i juz tot of sth damn funny. saw on tv the blonde bimbo who din dare to go down the water slide. den i suddenly had this tot, bimbos are named bimbos mebbe cuz they are more expressive with their emotions and thoughts lo. sometimes when we dunno stuff we juz keep mum and hope to find clues on what is that thing by listening to other people's convo. bimbos will just ask straightaway without stopping to observe what is going on and thats why they look damn dumb askin stupid questions. haha. ya man, next time cannot blame bimbos for being so bimbotic luh. cuz mebbe a lot of people are bimbos and himbos themselves just that they dun express their thoughts and emotions so much. make sense eh? heee. obtained another level of enlightenment le! =P ok la this is a bimbotic comment now. RAWR!! but ya, just to add on, mebbe bimbos are not to bimbotic after all. they noe what is going on but they just want attention so thats why they make themselves seem stupid. and stupid gals make guys less alert with them around? haha. dunno why i suddenly have all these thinking sia. but yup. my feelings bout bimbos. LOL i am laughin when i'm reading wad i've typed la. haha.
alrite i guess thats about it. heh.
Quote:多想要记住这一分钟回应我幸福的要求我或许没有别的梦唯一的是我爱你你也爱我不担心一杯红酒,把我的真心透露, 或许你在就该懂冰淇淋在喉咙,能多冷静几秒钟, 气氛在浪漫都不够。烛光晚餐像一场美梦,向这样望着你到永久一束玫瑰交到你的手中这一天这一刻这一切,你属于我多想要拦住这一秒钟,你每天晚餐都陪我。美味比不过你温柔,从此以后,我爱你你爱我多想要记住这一分钟 回应我幸福的要求 我或许没有别的梦 唯一的是 我爱你你也爱我我不是个浪漫的家伙却甘心为你这样做。想要什么都跟我说从此以后,我爱你你爱我我是不是有一点别扭从不曾这样说出口太多的愿望在心中重要的是,我爱你你也爱着我。(烛光晚餐,曹格)Labels: 烛光晚餐
11/09/2009 10:56:00 AM
Sunday, November 1, 2009
i love kkochi
30/10/2009, fri
fri was an uneventful day. 2 hrs of lessons in sch, den went home to try to do chin assignment but to no avail. guessed i procrastinate too much agn. read up on the articles but it took me so freakin long to read it la, shit damn pissed me off. din get the chance to meet him on fri. yea, felt a bit bored lo. glad he still called me at night to chat. haha. this time round our chats were broke up to 3 parts lo. with him stuck at office and the last one was late night, when i off-ed my com. haha. alrite. i guess the only good thing that happened was i finally get to have dinner wif my family. haha. damn, felt abit bad for not gng down to help out the phone interview but yea, i guess it's almost done le rite? hmmm. was looking forward to dry run, with the small small hope that he might attend in the afternoon though his job is holding him back.
31/10/2009, sat
dry run was great!!! i love the programs lo. the way dry run was structured was damn good. those super strenuous ones were done from the start. den slowly the games got more n more slack. dunno wad to say but i really feel that the games were superb! and i guess the ice breakers really helped us break the ice lo. haha. it was almost full force for the leaders la. even melvin went can. wow. i guess he is less busy than.... haha anyways yup. everyone really spoke up. and marlon was damn crazy sia. haha. dry run was good!
after bathing at home i went back to shines to meet them agn to go out. when we started walkin out, damn the rain got bigger la. and i juz finish bathin can?!?! haha eventually we went to have steamboat. damn, i like the steamboat place lo. the waiters and workers there are v friendly sia. i'm gonna go back there agn. hehe. mebbe with MR? yup. after steamboat i left early to meet up wif MR. haha, we seem to meet at least twice every week? went ta KLP to have the damn good kkochi agn, the chicken kebab? dunno how to say la. MR tried the level 3 spicy-ness this time. hiong sia. damn shuang la, esp for a cold weather liddat. he brought along a jacket for me. so nice luh~ i was juz askin for a change of clothes cuz i was cold. heh. he brought like jacket towel and shirt la. but i guess my steamboat smell difffused to his jacket lo. too bad.. haha.
caught a late night movie lo. watch pandorum. damn its nt really good sia. its a typical sci-fi show. hmmm. so far the movies we've watched were nt that nice lo. man. next time muz really read up on it first le. haha. ytd i broke house rules agn, reached home at 2am. LOL. frm ytd, i got some conclusion. unlike wad i told val, i tink it will take a damn long time b4 he asked me that question. seriously. that was a conclusion frm ytd luh~... but nvm, more chance to see first. haha.
today will be a sucky day cuz i need to work on my last assignment den i am free to mug for my exams le! i totally hate assignments can. RAWR!! haha. need ta get back to work liao...
quote may come later at night. LOL
11/01/2009 01:09:00 PM
Thursday, October 29, 2009
different feelings....
val said i very long nv blog le. haha here i am. no time to blog everyday lo, got ohilo to read up on and then calling. haha. but once every 2 days i guess its fine ba. bloggin is the first thing i do when i reach home today la, cuz there is stuff to say bout today lo
today is the last main comm meeting for y camp. many many ppl sia. haha. i bit paiseh i nv do up my survival guide lo but nvm, i guess we still have our chances. haha. yup. mix feelings in me now, ok mebbe just now. when i see her and kmkz jokin with each other, omg, i felt it agn. RAWR!! damn weird feeling la, a bit the irritated, ok dunno why it came out but ya, i cannot feel like that, i got MR liao. haha. then during meeting she said like, nt a lot, but her words came out a bit wrong la. oh wells, that did make me feel nt really happy oso. ya. its oso a bit on her insensitiveness i guess. good thing i wasn't her co-**...haha ok la, but her words make sense, just that please don't put it in such a way i guess. ya lo. dun like it when i have this feel.
b4 meetin me n hazmi went hanging arnd ps, ok acty nt much of hanging arnd, more of sitting down, eating and chatting. haha. hazmi wanted to buy moisturizer sia. omg, he got some strawberry flavoured thing frm body shop lo. smells edible la. if i gotta apply it i will eat my hand man. and ya. he was so damn secretive bout it la. super funny lo!! but yup. its damn nice hanging out wif mimi. heh. i tink he is my second y fren lo. ok now my whole hand is filled with smells of perfume from the body shop. it is good, but too much of a good thing sometimes gets a bit irritatin. damn i'm gonna bathe after bloggin sia.
finally submitted the philo paper, damn it f pissed me off sia. juz anyhow do lo. i tink i'l screw up this sem's CAP la. but nvm. slowly slowly sia. today's lesson was quite fun. ponned emotions lec to go for make up tut for chin. haha. i realized chin literary works are quite interesting sia, no wonder tracia was so into it then. haha but i tink i wun find time to go n read such stuff de lo. i'l get more of english stuff ba.
today i sorta missed him a little. dunno why but after ytd i feel that i am a bit inferior to his ex gfs. yea man. like a bit pei bu shang him, shit why i always have this inferiority complex sia. but there was a sentence he said: all my ex gfs very good at expressing themselves and more inclined towards the arts side. hmmm, i felt a bit inferior when i heard it lo. like. damn, i'm just a student. what am i to him man. RAWR!! then today after i said i ended lesson den he nv reply me le. until now sia. i'm still waitin for his reply lo. damn. i checked my phone so many times today la. for his msg, his predicted missed calls, anything... but dun have sia. hmmmm. why? izzit i say wrong things agn, or he really thinks we are nt suited for each other. hmmm. i'm thinkin of that question oso lo. but ya la its too early to say so. juz now got another more exaggerating thought la. i suddenly start to worry did he fell off the building when he wanted to reply an sms, or mebbe MY sms? damn can he please freakin reply?!?!
ok as usual i heard this song on my mp3 agn. explained what i felt for a moment, den i realised mebbe this song can be one of those that he choose to dedicate to me. hehe
Quote:今夜玩得有一点疯狂其实我早就该回去整夜的笑容在你的脸上你是我最美的旋律牵手牵得那么自然 ah有默契浪漫就不难像是手表被谁快转你说真的时间太晚 oh no nooh 在每一秒里都想见到你爱是不停在期待的心拥有完美感情才有好心情能不能晚点回去oh 在每一秒里都想见到你太多话我想讲给你听今夜有最适合谈心的天气能不能晚点回去(每一秒里都想见到你, 王力宏)today is quite a nice day though he nv reply me. haha. nice weather too. hope it will be the same tmr, but with him replyin. RAWR!!
Labels: 每一秒里都想见到你
10/29/2009 11:46:00 PM